Thoughts from a virus Val

Monday 27th September 2004-Have just come back from body boarding in Cornwall. But I didn't really body board too much a) because I didn't quite get the hang of it and b)cos I got really ill and shivery and pain in my throat and ears and mouth ulcers and they called me 'Virus Val'. It was a cool time tho because a) I went with sista and Kenny they are fun, non-couply, interesting and talkative b) I met some cool people...Becky: a dude who's interesting, creative, caring. Marius: a photographer. Andy: very amusing and cracked me up for example, by asking a group of surf dudes about 'riding the waves' and 'wafers' (You had to be there to laugh) c) It was just fun. The downside was having a virus meant that I slept more than normal.But luckily there was a pub near to boarding and so I could sit in there, drink bear (altho I dont drink beer I drink coke or orange but drinking beer sounds more surfing-dude like) and fall asleep..and I could also go and watch the boarding. I am now at my sisters and kennys in bedford...I decided I was too ill to drive back and teach tomorrow however I have a feeling I'll be much better by tomorrow and could've easily taught.Oops. I now feel like a slacker. At least It means I have more time with sister and also I am reading the bible as I lie on the sofa which is darn good for me as I am still trying to work out what I believe.It is also a scarey position to be in..as I am thinking am i gonna decide I don't believe?? Help..I don't even get hell and I've been a christian for so long supposedly. I have also been thinking that I am a too negative person who responds negatively in slightly stretching circumstances.I don't like it. Oops that was negative in itself. What I could have thought is that it is positive that I atleast recognise I'm negative as I can retrain myself to be a more positive person. Apoplogies for the entries I've written in this blog that are very negative and tend to look at life in a negative way. Any tips for adopting more positive ways of seeing life? Love virus Valxx